Saw a meme the other day that said “Gut feelings are Guardian Angels”. I liked it until I thought back to Charlotte and a gut feeling I had since July 8th. I couldn’t shake it and at first I was hoping to be proven wrong. I had a feeling she wasn’t going to make it in spite of the doctors telling me everything was looking good.
Turned out that gut feeling was also right. But, it did prepare me better for the outcome. I had over a week to get ready to hear the words the transplant board did not accept her as a recipient. Some memes just really hit you between the eyes. Yet we glance at them all, laugh at some, and some get us thinking.
Yesterday I got a hand-written note from someone at the hospital who expressed their sadness and shared a poem. Doing some research I found the poem credited to a 19th century woman, a Native American poet, and anonymous. Whoever wrote it, we’ll share it.
I give you this one thought to keep –
I am with you still – I do not sleep.
I am a thousand winds that blow,
I am the diamond glints on snow,
I am the sunlight on ripened grain,
I am the gentle autumn rain.
When you awaken in the morning’s hush,
I am the swift, uplifting rush of quiet birds in circled flight.
I am the soft stars that shine at night.
Do not think of me as gone –
I am with you still – in each new dawn.